Archive for January, 2010

first post on grief cloud.

when people talk about something, you kinda know if they’re talking about you. Though at times, it may not necessarily be about you, but if you have that guilt inside of you, you will defintiely have that feeling, that you’re being talked about.

there are 2 issues that can be raised from this situation.

1. the one feeling guilty

Everyone makes mistakes. because we are all normal human being, who are imperfect. we make mistakes. and because of that, we are somehow being punished by the people around us. though some of us may see this as something that is clearly unfair, this is the fact of life.

when we, regradless of whether ew intentionally or untentionally allow ourselves to make mistakes, we are entitled to be punished. be it from Him, or the people around us, or life itself.

So the only thing that we can do is, SABAR.

2.the one who are speaking, making that other person feeling really2 bad.

but then again, one should always remember that, becasue we are all normal human being, we are also bound to be very hurtful towards others. to be cruel to others, to be unkind towards the people around us. However, it should not be the reason for us to be such a pain for others.

Have you ever thought of how hard it is to be in other people’s shoes? Feeling what others may feel. the bruise may go away, but it will always be remembered.

Always bare in mind that, what you give, you’ll always get back.


81: 1-14

“When the sun is overthrown. And when the stars fall. And when the hills are moved. And when the camels big with young are abandoned. And when the wild beasts are herded together. And when the seas rise. And when souls are reunited. And when the girl-child that was buried alive is asked: For what sin she was slain. And when the pages are laid open. And when the sky is torn away. And when hell is lighted. And when the Garden is brought nigh. (Then) every soul will know what it hath made ready.”


kecuali (dengan mengatakan) “InsyAllah”, dan ingatlah kepada Tuhanmu apabila engkau lupa dan katakanlah, mudah-mudahan Tuhan akan memberiku petunjuk agar aku lebih dekat (kebenarannya) daripada ini”

hilang dan bangkit.

aku hilang
sesat entah ke mana
dalam dunia yang sementara

saat minda hilang
hati terbang
jiwa melayang

syaitan bagaikan tuan
nafsu melekat macam gam
dosa bertindan-tindan.

tika hati menjadi hitam,
Dia memberi peringatan
Bahawa duniawi takkan berkekalan,
Neraka kan jadi teman.

bangun dari mimpi
dengan peluh penuh di dahi
terus menyelak kembali
mencari-cari yang tersembunyi
dalam kitab suci.

Aku jumpa.
bukan satu, dua atau tiga.
tapi tak cuku jari
ku pinjam jari masih tak terkira.

Nothing can ever be this satisfying.
Thank you Lord.

Jiwaku adalah milikMu, Ya Rabb.

The Journey to Middle Earth

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost,
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring,
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

The makingup- part 1

He came in today with
the calmness
he had lost a year ago.

he said hello,
and was very polite.

something that was not
suppose to happen.
but yet,
it happened.

nawaitu- nya tampak baek.
ingin terus berkawan.

hati batu yang lalu,
kembali bernafas
mengalirkan darah
dalam salur-salur kecik tersebut.

the aircond made the night
seemed like a dream.
but it wasn’t anything like it.
it was better.

welcome to the world of believing and patience.
to be continued-


jari pantas bergerak,
minda ke mana entah
satu persatu gambar di geledah
bagai anjing hilang arah.

the moment was captured
every single bit of it.
and those memory
stand on their own,
flying her
to the nest that of reminiscence.