Archive for February, 2010

You don’t know yourself, until you’re tested.

Most of the time, we like to think ourselves as to capable of doing a lot of things. Like myself, I am sooo used to being away from the family that I do think that I know I’ll manage these 2 years without having to be homesick all the time. See, the thing is, I was in a boarding school in Perak for 5 years, a college in Pahang for a month and almost 30 months in Sarawak. So, I was confident that I would be ok, and that 2 years would be nothing.

But the distance proved me wrong. I was sooo wrong that I tried to do loads of other stuff to get my mind off myself being super homesick.

I miss my mom.
I miss my sisters and brother.
I miss mom’s cookings.

Normally, I would always be online for my skype, but this particular day, I didn’t know what happened that I totally forgot to be online.
So the very next day, I switched my pc and had my skype turned on.
I was then when I got the offline msgs from angah, saying that I should call home, or start skype-ing more and adding more pics in fb for mama, because she’s kinda missing me really bad. Then, I was like; heck. The homesickness, out of nowhere started pumping like a balloon waiting to burst. And it only took a few seconds before those tears rolled down. Nak call tak boleh, because it’s like 2 am in Malaysia.

I wish I could be home.



Alhamdulillah. Dengan rahmat dan kasih sayangNya, I’m already in this beautiful land of Dunedin. Macam tak percaya jugak, akhirnya we’re all here.

Alhamdulillah. Everything seems to be getting well, except for the cold weather. Actually, it isn’t just the coldness that hits all of us, but also the wind. I mean, there surely is some wind in Malaysia, but not as strong as the ones here. Sejjuuuk!. We all have to buy the bedding stuff eg duvet blablabla…

Then comes the food. Obviously Malaysian food is really hard to find, but there is rice. Just kene beli beras la.. There are also some halal restaurants, but I’ve only been to one. A kebab store.

But one thing for sure, this place is super beautiful.

Bila masa hampir tiba.

Bismillah hirrahman nirrahim.

when the flying date is approaching, the feeling of uneasiness and grief too, starts to become some sort of a blockage for me from the excitement and joy I felt a few months before in going to nz.

the thoughts of leaving mommy at home alone, after 2 months of sticking at home with her is painfully excruciating. Mane tak nya, the hols was over 2 months. Dari november to february.

on the other hand, looking on the bright side of studying in dunedin, i cannot deny that i am very excited. all 60 of us have been waiting for the moment to fly there and the time has finally come. however, i do feel a little nervous about being around the native speaker of the language. Takut tak faham or terpinga-pinga dengan dorang punya accent. That’s the only thing that I hope I can overcome fast, when i get there.

the flight going to auc will be on thurs, 930pm. insyAllah will be arriving in auc airport at 1210pm, the next day. then we’ll be stranded in auc airport for 7 hours before flying to dunedin at around 730pm, i think. hopefully everything will run well, and nothing goes wrong at the airport. Amin.

To friends, doakan kejayaan aku ek. Ada azam baru tahun ni. Nak belajar elok2, dapat dean’s list pon ok jugak ;). InsyAllah, I’ll keep in touch.