Archive for September, 2010

Yakin wani, yakin.

In the name of Allah.

I am embarking on a mission. 30 days trial period, supportive friends and perseverance. If the result is successful, insyAllah, will continue with it. If not, I’ll try other means. Other alternatives. Doakan ye kawan-kawan.

Yakin wani, yakin.

Why the heck did I decide to do this at the first place?

Part of me believes that I need to do something for myself.  Something good for my own sake.  And another part of me, said that this is because other people. I don’t know which should I side with. Perhaps a little bit of both.

Allahumma yassir wala tuassir.


this week’s summary

In the name of Allah.

It has been a hectic week. Salah, salah. It is still a hectic week and will be the same next week.

Anyways, this is just a short break before I continue wrinkling my forehead, trying to finish tonnes of assignments. I really can’t wait for summer to come. It’s a long way before I get there, but I know it’s going to be worth the pain! Wish me luck!

Speaking of summer, I am yet to decide whether I want to go back this hols or not. I want to look for summer job (moneymoneymoney), if I got one I wouldn’t go back. BUT, if I can’t find any, what’s the point of staying in this dead town for 3 months, right?…

Last but not least, Mom’s coming in 7 days time! How exciting is that?…Can’t stop myself from smiling. I haven’t planned anything yet, but I will make it as soon as I hand in my Crime assignment.

Oh yeah. I received a parcel from Malaysia. Nope. Not from any of my family members (although they did send me kad raya:) )… It’s from a very good friend, who has recently passed his oral test. Congrats! I know after this I wouldn’t be seeing much of him anymore, cause he’ll be saaaiiiilllliing the world…Thanks okeh kawan, it did make my day less stressful!

Pray that I am always well, will you? I’ve been in a rather solemn mood these few days whenever I’m alone. Which is not a good thing.

Lesson for the past few weeks.

In the name of Allah.

Lately I’ve been noticing something about myself. That, I have this tendency to talk loads and most of the time, the talking does not give me any good. When I reflect on myself, it becomes something very embarrassing, well not embarrassing. Perhaps the best word would be frustrated or disappointed. That I could have behaved in such a manner that I myself do not approve for others to do as well.


And most of the time, when this kind of ‘reflection’ session revisits, I feel very small. like a rat I should say. Not that I make those squeaky stuff but the feeling of being so small and alone.

In reality, I am not alone in this world. In fact, I still have my family and and awfully good friends around me. But somehow, this distant feeling and frustration keep me away from being happy. It feels like this feelings I have is like a kind of a gap that keeps me away from my happiness and contentment.


Do not do unto others as you would have them do unto you. End of story wani.

Eid Mubarak!

In the name of Allah.

It’s pathetic to be on the internet on such day. But, who cares? It’s not like I’m in Malaysia or something that everyone should be busy and do stuff.


Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin.

The two most frequent asked questions about celebrating eid in Dunedin.

1. Tak sedih ke raye jauh-jauh?

Obviously yes. Who wouldn’t? Especially when you listened to the takbir. If not for the ‘srots’ oen would have cried a river. But somehow, when the eid day itself came, you wouldn’t have the time to be sad! Busy sangat nak layan orang datang rumah, which is a good thing. Plus, when you visit your friends, rasa seronok. Bukanlah visit your parents’ long lost friends tak seronok, but it’s a dfferent kind of fun.

2. Makan apalah raya nih? Masak ke?

Well, we don’t have those traditional cuisine but we tried to make it as traditional as possible. We did cooked some rendang, kuah kacang, nasi impit and 2 types of kueh raya. Alhmadullillah, they were ok. Cukup la untuk perantau-perantau to have a little taste of Malaysia.

Alhamdulliah, I’ve  learn so much this Ramadhan and the first few days of Syawal. I learn to speak less, to control anger, to ignore whenever I should.  Though they’re not easy stuff to do, they’re worth the try.

I try to remind myself that the things that I did in Ramadhan should not only be done in Ramadhan, it should be practised year-round because Ramadhan itseld is a madrasah(school) for building/instilling good values in Muslims.

I hope everyone would feel the same and put in the extra effort to continue our Ramadhan routines, InsyAllah.

Ramadhan: final lapse

In the name of Allah, the most merciful.

Believe it or not, it’s already September. Somehow, it feels like yesterday have I only arrived to the city. Rainy day, soaked when I first stepped Leith Street. Who would have thought we could survive 7 months here, Alhamdulillah. 🙂

It’s still Ramadhan, but as any other thing that exist, it must come to an end. Ramadhan too is in its last phase as we speak. And this brings us back to the most important time of the month where we seek of Lailatul Qadr, malam seribu malam. Fastabikul khayrat, insyAllah.

While there’s still time, while Ramadhan is still around let us all race towards getting to the highest rank for in the month of Ramadhan that all good deeds are worth more.

Every action of the son of Adam is given manifold reward, each good deed receiving then times its like, up to seven hundred times. Allah the Most High said, ‘Except for fasting, for it is for Me and I will give recompense for it, he leaves off his desires and his food for Me.’ for the fasting person there are two times of joy; a time when he breaks his fast and a time of joy when he meets his Lord, and the smell coming from the mouth of the fasting person is better with Allah than the smell of musk.”[al-Bukhaaree]

Before ending this post, let us all sit back and reflect our Ramadhan. Because Ramadhan is still in the air, there is still time for us to make a change, to cleanse ourselves from the worldly filth.

What have I achieved this Ramadhan?
Have I wasted it with my worldly matters?
How am I a better person than I was before Ramadhan came?

Finally, always remember the hadeeth of our Prophet (sallaAllahu alayhe wasallam):

May his nose be rubbed in the dust, a man for whom Ramadan comes and then goes before he is forgiven. [Narrated by al-Tirmidhi, 3545; classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi]